Sunday, January 8, 2012

I am Awesome...

It's 2012 and I am Awesome...I think.  I have recently noticed that ever since I have finished school my confidence in myself has started to fade. Why? I have no idea! Maybe it's because I don't feel like Wonder Woman anymore, working two jobs, going to school full-time and interning. As tired as I was, juggling all those things at once made me feel great about myself.  I still work two jobs at crazy hours of  the day, but it doesn't make me feel like a superhero, it mostly just makes me tired. I got my "dream" job right after I graduated and now I thinking that maybe it's not my dream. So it's back to the drawing board.

Over the past couple months I have had to face a few road blocks in my plan to be independent and successful. I think those road blocks have worn me down. I couldn't even enjoy the holidays because I was so stressed out. There was one week in December that I think I cried everyday. If you know me well, you that is not the norm for me. So, it's a new year and time to make some changes.

I usually do not make New Year's resolutions because I never keep them. This year I decided to give it a try. My resolution for 2012 is to tell myself everyday that I am Awesome, and believe it. I think this will help me rebuild my confidence to change my situations. Joel Osteen said," There is incredible power in what we are saying, with our words we are sealing our destiny". So that's what I do, everyday I tell myself I am Awesome in a different way. If there is indeed power in words, then I am gonna be the most powerful person in 2012!

Friday, November 25, 2011

Living the dream?

It's been four months since my last blog, and those for months have been busy.

I graduated college, finally, which was the happiest day of my life.  To see all my hard work and sacrifice finally pay off was Awesome.  And I'm so thankful my family and best friends were there to see it.  My best friend from Chicago couldn't come down, so we met for a much needed vacation in Boston.  For my gist she bought me a ticket to see the Yankees and Red Sox play at Fenway Park.  If you dont' know sports, shame on you!  But  this is the best rivalry in Sports.  These tickets are hard to come by, so I was so excited we got to go.  And best of all, The Yankees Won!!

In early September I started my first job out of college.  I am an Associate Producer at a local news station here in San Antonio.  Since high school I have dreamed of working in television.  Right now I work general news, but my dream is produce sports.  I have been snooping around and was sad to find that my dream job pays horribly.  And I know money isn't everything,  but when you're single and living off one income, it becomes a little more important. 

So, I'm still trying to figure things out.  Sometimes I wondering if I will.

"Well, some say life will beat you down
Break your heart, steal your crown
So I've started out for God knows where
I guess I'll know when I get there

I'm learning to fly but I ain't got wings
Coming down is the hardest thing" - Tom Petty

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Gone Too Soon

So this morning I was watching the Today show and I saw a story about an Olympic Skier, Jeret "Speedy" Peterson, who took his own life yesterday. The hosts told all about his accomplishments on slopes and then told about all the bad things that had happened in his home life.  When he was 18 months old he was sexually molested by a family member.  They said he had no recollection of the event, but his mother had told him about it later. This statement shocked me. I cannont understand why a mother would tell her child that they had been molested if they had no prior knowledge of the event.

So here is my question...if you were in the same situation would you tell your child?

Here is the link to the story if you would like to watch the segment:

I pray that God blesses his family and friends in this difficult time and that "Speedy" has finally found peace.

They played the music to this song at the end of the clip. It is one of my FAVORITES.

"Turning circles when time again
It cuts like a knife oh yeah
If you love me got to know for sure
Cos it takes something more this time
Than sweet sweet lies
Before I open up my arms and fall
Losing all control
Every dream inside my soul" David Gray

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Some Like it HOT...

I know I am a True TX girl, but this heat is going to kill me.  It is only mid June and we are well into triple digit temperatures everyday.  I don't think I'm going to survive. I was so excited to be able to get outside and start being active, but I don't even like walking to my car in this heat.  I swear my skin was burning just from walking to my car from school today. (If you have ever had to park at UTSA you know that is a hike though.)

The thing that kills me are all theses crazies out running in the heat of the day.  Hello people, YOU ARE GOING TO DIE OUT THERE!  Many moons ago when I aspired to to be a marathon runner, I would run on the access road of 1604.  One day I went out for a 6 mile run and I literally wanted to jump in front of a car to be put out of my misery, and it was only like 80 degrees outside.  I swear there were vultures following me waiting for me to drop, and not the cool ones that talked like the Beatles from The Jungle Book.   I could see there creepy shadows on the road, True Story.

I know I should be used to it, but I'm not and don't think I ever will be.  So where "Some Like it Hot", I DO NOT!  And now I have that Robert Palmer song playing in my head over and over, and Bananarama.(I am a true child of the 80's.)

"Hot summer streets and the pavements are burning I sit around. Trying to smile but the air is so heavy and dry....It's a cruel cruel summer..." Bananarama

Friday, June 10, 2011

Welcome to my crazy little world

Well, after much thought I have decided to start a blog.  If for some reason you are reading this and you don't know me, here's a little background info.  I'm a TX girl born and raised!  I love TX.  It's not just where I live, it's who I am.  I come from one of those crazy families where my parents are still married, and we have dinner together at least twice a week. (sad that we are not the norm.)  I have an older sister who has a two year old daughter.  They are my life!  We all live within a mile of each other, so we can't get away from each other if we tried.

Back to me...I am a 30 year old recent college graduate.  Why did it take me so long to finish school?  Refer to my blog title for your answer.  I had given up on school after many failed attempts to finish a semester of classes when the most wonderful thing happened to me...I found Christ.  In 2007, I accepted Christ into my life and decided to start making some life changes.  I could either sit around and complain about the crappy hand I had been dealt, or I could start to change things for the better.  So that's what I did.  I slowly went back to school and have finally finished my undergrad.  I am so proud of this accomplishment, but now this means I have to grow up and get a real job. Ugh!!!

My goal in life has been to marry rich so that I won't have to work.  Well, that's taking a little longer than expected so let the job search begin...  My posts will highlight the struggles a 30 year old single aunt goes through day to day.  I hope that you find humor, hope, or inspiration while you read.  I leave you with a line from the song that inspired my blog title.

"Well I never seem to do it like anybody else, Maybe someday I'm gonna settle down.  If you ever wanna find me I can still be found, Taking the Long Way Around.....Dixie Chicks